"To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain from my eyes"
It torments me day and night.
Letting me not forget what I went through.
The fight I fought.
The battle I almost didnt win.
Yet I still act like I lost.
I choose to remember.
&& falling seems so easy now.
Tears dont exsist to me.
They are just water running down my cheeks.
burning the emotions I feel.
I regret one thing in my life.
and I will never forget the day.
I let him take all of me with him.
He was supposed to be my protection.
He has something worthy of mine.
Yet he drags along like its dirt.
I know everything I should have done.
Should have felt.
I treat my past like its still living.
Its dead in the saviors eyes.
Yet I cant see it that way.
I can touch it.
Feel it.
How can I let something so painful just slip right through me.
How can I keep letting the battle of Satan win?
Satan is nothing compared to power of Jesus I have within me.
Yet I let my faith fall each time.
He knows just what to say.
And. Everytime. I. Remember.
1 comment:
Aw girl, I have no idea what your past was like, but, maybe Remembering isn't the problem you need to get rid of. Maybe you will never forget it, and maybe that's not a bad thing. Maybe it's just how you see it that matters. It seems like when we try to do one thing, we do quite the opposite. So maybe with this, don't try to forget it, but just work on not letting it control you. And when it does come into your memory there is a perfect time to write it all down and thank GOD for bringing you through it. Instead of a horrible memory you will begin to remember it as a beautiful thing that God brought you through. The thing itself not being beautiful, but a beautiful testament to what God CAN do!
He wants to work through you girl. He wants you fighting along side all of our other brothers and sisters fighting the fight for Christ and He will use your testamony to reach people. But remember, the glory isn't in the sin before, the real Glory is found when Christ entered into the picture. :) luv ya!
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